Troop Morale is Low
I can't lie and that's the truth. I'm just a bad liar so I've given up faking. I had every intention of writing a blog entry about holy week and posting pictures from a live reenactment of the crucifixion (heck, I may post those at some point anyways just to give you all some eye candy) but that is just not on my mind right now, so why pretend? I am homesick today, incredibly, undeniably homesick. Throughout the trip I've had moments when I've missed certain aspects of home, certain people, certain foods, but today I was overcome and overwhelmed with longing for everything and even the desire to leave Mexico. I'm hoping this wave of depression will pass and that I don't spend my last 2 weeks counting down the days, but I was totally floored by homesickness today.
What's worst is, I don't get internet in my house, so when I first attempted to be cheerful in my email writing this morning and broke down, I was a pathetic, bawling mess in the classroom of my school! What a disgusting sight to think about, crying alone in a room full of empty seats facing an empty white board forced to occupy the corner for its outlet adjacency. But I think I needed that good cry and now I can just push through it. It's a shame I wasn't in the privacy of my room, but at least it's over. Now, now, I'm not that strong, I'm still pretty shaken up, but I should be able to keep it together for the rest of the day and by Monday when I'm forced to face the emails of my friends and family, I won't have a meltdown in class.
Saturday, April 03, 2010
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homesick
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- ATV
- bats
- beach
- Becan
- birding
- birdwatching
- birthday
- Black Howler Monkeys
- Boot Camp
- bull fight
- butt loads of homework
- calendar
- canyon
- capuchin monkeys
- Carnaval
- carnival
- cenote
- Central American Yellow Bat
- Chamul
- Chicanna
- Chichen Itza
- CICY
- Cielo
- common paraque
- computer failure
- Cozumel
- crocodiles
- dancing
- Dzibilchaltún
- electricity
- Evolution
- Ferruginous Pygmy Owl
- final exam
- first day
- food
- general info
- Great Barracuda
- great kiskadee
- green heron
- hammocks
- Hell
- henequen
- hike
- home
- homesick
- internet
- Izamal
- Kiuic
- La Selva
- La Selva Lacandon
- Las Cruces
- last day
- lost
- Makia
- Maya calendar
- Osa
- Oxintok
- Palenque
- Palo Verde
- panuchos
- parade
- Progresso
- Puerto Morelos
- rafting
- Rio Lagartos
- Rio Tempisque
- San Cristobal
- schedule
- shopping
- snorkeling
- spiders
- Squirrelfish
- Sumidero
- sunrise
- sunset
- Tonina
- traditional clothing
- travel
- turquoise browed motmot
- Tuxtla
- Valentines Day
- vampire bat
- waterfalls
- wedding
- White-eyed Vireo
- white-nosed coati
- Yaxchilan
- Zinacantan
- ziplining
- zoo
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